Ok, I have a bucket list. If you don’t know what a bucket list is, it is a list of things that you want to do before you kick the bucket. I don’t have very many items on my bucket list. At the top has been “have a clean house” for about as long as I have known what a bucket list is. Other items include “Get a book published”, “Visit the highlands of Scotland”, “get a couple more cds out” and “Become a better artist”. I have a couple more which I doubt will ever happen.
Well, today I hold proof that one of the items on my bucket list can be crossed out. My author’s copies arrived today. A book. With my name as the sole author. A real book, that I wrote. And it is not a vanity publishing. I did not pay a cent to have this book published. My author’s copies are an advance on royalties. And hopefully, between me, the publisher, and Amazon, enough copies will sell so that I can earn a little bit in royalties. Honestly? I would love it if a million copies sold. If this went viral. I would love to know that my struggles with hoarding could help someone else. I am a hoarder. The cover of my book is my living room 5 years ago – and it doesn’t look much better today, at least, not right at this moment. So often I feel like a failure. But…
I have a book published. I have the proof, right here at the side of my computer. I can cross off something from my bucket list.
And more than that…when my book was accepted for publication, I had to read it to make the edits. Then I had to read it again. I read the galley. And in the process of reading and rereading my book. I started thinking about my bucket list – which I talk about a little bit in one of the chapters.
And I started to paint more. I am not an artist. But I am beginning to teach myself how to translate the image from my mind to canvas. I have a painting in my mind, and it is my dearest hope that someday, I will be able to paint it.
I’ve crossed one item off my bucket list. I’m beginning to work on another. Who knows – maybe I will be able to go to Scotland someday. And, someday, I plan on crossing off the one about having a clean house.
I am not a failure. I am able to succeed. And so can you.
If you are interested, my book, Meditations of a Hoarder, is available at Yard Dog Press, and may be purchased as a paperback or an ebook. http://www.yarddogpress.com/books/MeditationsofaHoarder.html